Today, I am being a little foolish, a little stupid, and a little upset. I know I'm being selfish, but I can't help it. Believe me, I'm trying not to feel this way, but it's just not fair.
Let me give you a little background information-- David's cousin Russell got engaged a year ago in December. He was married this past October. Everyone was so excited for them, and they should be. It was their time to shine. They were in love and planning their wedding (which was beautiful, by the way) and no one interfered with that. That's how I think it should be. David knew it was their time too, he didn't ask me to marry him until they had been married for almost a month. He didn't want anything taking away from their new beginning and wanted to make sure they had enough time to feel special and really enjoy being newlyweds.
David's other cousin, Van, just got engaged a few weeks ago. Van informed David last night that he and Brittany (his fiancee) were thinking of a few dates but had narrowed it down to labor day weekend or October 8th. (Remember, David and I are getting married on Sept. 24th!) They decided to go with October 8th so they wouldn't be getting married before we did. How thoughtful of you.
I know I should be happy for them. I know I should be grateful they decided to go with Oct. 8th instead of 2 weeks before my wedding. But instead, I'm angry. I'm hurt. And I feel a little disrespected. Instead of 2 weeks before, they are doing 2 weeks after. Like I said, it's selfish and I realize that. But I want that special time to transition into being married. I want to enjoy it, relish it, and grow into this new role in life. I really don't think that's going to happen in 2 weeks. It's almost like this new union will be overshadowed. David was so polite in waiting a while to do anything and that's why I love him so much. He always thinks of others. But I want that same respect and I don't feel like I'm getting it at all. Of all the Saturdays after September 24th, there wasn't one a little farther out to choose? I know I'm being selfish, but I think they are being selfish too. No one is getting married 2 weeks after them so they don't have to worry about their special time being cut short. It's just really hurt my feelings.
With all that being said, I'm still excited about my wedding and my marriage, but today I'm just not feeling it. But luckily there are only a few updates:
- The biggest update I kind of mentioned in last Wednesday's blog. We decided to change photographers! At the beginning, I was the only one who met with OTL (since David and I are apart). We both met with Piper Warlock and since we both met with her in person , I was happier with using her because of that very reason. As luck would have it though, David was here this past weekend and we e-mailed OTL last minute asking if they could meet with us since he was in town. We met for lunch on Monday and before we even sat down to eat David whispered to me, "I'm sold." He really, really liked them :) We talked about it when we got home and just decided OTL was who we were supposed to go with. I'm glad we ended up both getting to meet all parties involved because it made the decision a lot easier to make when he and I could compare together. Lesson #1 learned for the future marriage: make decisions together. Whew! 1 down, a billion more to go ;)
- And the only other update I have is that I think I'm going wedding dress shopping this weekend! If not this weekend, then definitely next weekend. I'm ready to start finding my dress!
This next part makes me feel so much better because I love my bridesmaids! Meet Leslie:
Leslie and I have only known each other for about 2 years, but I've known her dad for a while ;) He was my eye doctor!
We both ended up in the nursing school together and have become really good friends through this process! Leslie graduated from UGA with a degree in Psychology and absolutely loved her time there! So much so, that she goes back to visit with her friends a lot! Her boyfriend Hugh works in Atlanta so they split their time here or there. They are such a cute couple!
After graduation, she hopes to be working here or--surprise! In Atlanta! She really has a heart for pediatrics and NICU so she's hoping to get a job in that area!
And she's going to be an awesome nurse! I can't wait to see what the future holds for her in nursing! I'm also so happy that she's agreed to stand beside me at my wedding. I've really grown to cherish her friendship and wouldn't want it any other way!